Help Me Bring my Kids to Israel

As most of you know I have been wanting to bring my family to Israel for along time now. The cost is just so high for a family of 7. I'm looking at over $7-$8000 just to fly there. I'm thinking if I could raise enough money to pay for the tickets for just the kids I could pay for my wife and I. True I could go with just my wife but the kids will be heart broken. This is a huge expense! For all of us to fly there it's like I said above $7-$8000 plus passports for all the kids $500+ plus food and shelter while there for all 7 of us, and I still have bills at home I need to maintain while we are gone... I have tried this a couple times now with little success, I have raised a couple hundred dollars in my last effort that I plan to obviously apply to the trip... but I guess I will leave it to Hashem. ... every dollar helps, if u think I have nothing, I only can give $1 think if 100 people only gave $1 that's $100 so every dollar helps. You have no obligation to help me, and I hate to ask, I simply just can't bring all my kids without help.. so if u can I would be eternally grateful.
Yaakov


כפי שרובכם יודעים, אני כבר המון זמן מבקש להביא את המשפחה שלי לארץ ישראל, בתקווה

שיכירו את הארץ והעם היהודי ויתאהבו ויאמינו כמו שאני התאהבתי ומאמין...

אבל ב"ה יש לי ואשתי 5 ילדים, ורק כרטיסי הטיסה עולים בין 7-8,000 דולר, וזה בלי ההוצאות של

דרכונים, דיור ואוכל וכו' שנהיה בארץ. ובנוסף יש לי החשבונות השוטפות פה בארה"ב שאצטרך

לשלם.

אולי הייתי יכול לבוא רק עם אשתי. אבל הילדים כ"כ רוצים ומחכים לביקור הזה בארץ! וכל כך חשוב

לי שיחוו יחד איתנו את הארץ בתפילה שנזכה יחד לגלות שמקומנו הוא באמת עם העם היהודי בארץ

הקדושה.

אז אני פונה אליכם מעומקא דלבי, שתעזרו לי לגייס את הכספים הנדרשים להפוך את החלום הזה

למציאות... באמת גם אם אין לכם הרבה, כל דולר יכול לעזור... קשה לי מאוד לבקש, רק אני כ"כ

זקוק לעזרה ואודה לכם לנצח נצחים על העזרה שאתה מושיטים לי ובני ביתי! קשה לי לבקש, ואני

מבקש רק מתוך כיסופים עצומים להגיע לארץ ישראל עם כל המשפחה שלי ולהפוך החלום שלי של

עלייה מחלום למציאות.

שהשם יהיה עמכם,

תודה רבה,

יעקב


http://gofundme.com/Bringmykidstojerus

UPDATE!

"I don't speak because I have the power to speak; I speak because I don't have the power to remain silent" – Rabbi A.Y. Kook

It has been almost a year since my last post! Crazy how fast time flies. Well since I last wrote, I have been to Israel, and had the most amazing time! While I was there I got shingles! It was hell! Rather though than writing about my trip which many have heard already; I realized I have not been keeping up on this blog whatsoever. I really enjoyed writing this blog and it was helpful for me as i grew into Judaism in expressing myself. 

However, as I haven't written in a while or even looked at my blog I find my views have changed on things alot. I started deleting old posts but j have decided to leave what's left. Simply because it was part of the growing process, and those were views I had or held previously to get to were I am at now. So for that reason I have decided to leave them alone. For my most current thoughts please be sure to read the most recent posts. 

Already I can say I feel much more balanced and stable than it looks like I was previously.  For now on I intend to write regularly. So please read. Share your thoughts comments or whatever you like in the comments. Love ya all. And here we are January 21st 2016 and the journey continues.

Much love

 נ נח נחמ נחמן מאומן 

Yaakov Nachman Brawn

PLEASE HELP ME GET TO JERUSALEM!!!!

I have been into Judaism now for several years the last 4 of them has been all nanach. I desperatly want to convert to Orthodox Judaism and have been burning with desire to get to Jerusalem for years now. The tickets are very expensive and specially when I have a big family to take care of. I am married with 5 children. I work full time and  go to college. I live in the USA in Oregon Anything Helps it is my hearts desire to get to Jerusalem. I believe it is time to get on that plane but I need your help. Please help me get to Jerusalem and persue Hashem in the holy land and G-d willing convert and make alyiah...  I am almost there, I want this with every part of my soul!!!! Its all I could ever dream of!!!! I'm going alone and going to live off faith in Hashem for food and sleep... Please if you can help me in anyway even a small donation I would be forever grateful!!!!! It would make all my dreams come true!!! Anything helps even if its only $20... Thank you to all who can help and even those who cant but pray for me! Prayer is the highest! Love. NaNach!

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Sitting Here in Limbo, Like a Bird Without a Song

 

sitting here in limbo.

 

Sitting here in limbo, like a bird without a song
Sitting here in limbo, but I know it won't be long
Well, they're putting up resistance
But I know my faith will lead me on

Sitting here in limbo waiting for the tide to flow
Sitting here in limbo, knowing that I have to go
Well, they're putting up resistance
But I know my faith will lead me on

I don't know what life will show me
But I know what I've seen
I can't see where life will lead me
But I know where I've been

Tried my hand at love and friendship
But all that is passed and gone
This little boy is moving on

Sitting here in limbo, waiting for the dice to roll
Sitting here in limbo, got some time to search my soul
Well, they're putting up resistance
But I know my faith will lead me on

I don't know what life will show me
But I know what I've seen
I can't see where life will lead me
But I know where I've been

Tried my hand at love and friendship
But all that is passed and gone
This little boy is moving on

Sitting here in limbo, waiting for the dice to roll
Sitting here in limbo, got some time to search my soul
Well, they're putting up resistance
But I know my faith will lead me on

Well, they're putting up resistance
But I know my faith will lead me on

enough said..

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Illusory walls

 

Only Saba!!!

 

 

  

Only Jerusalem!!!

 

 

When someone wants to serve God or travel to the true Tzaddik, he is bound to face obstacles. Each person imagines that the obstacles he faces are greater than those facing others and finds it hard to withstand them. But no-one is ever confronted with obstacles that are beyond his ability to overcome if he really wants. The truth is that there is no obstacle at all, because God is present, albeit veiled, in the very obstacle itself.

The greatest of all barriers are those in the mind - when the person is divided from God or from the Tzaddik in his own mind and heart. A person may have come to the Tzaddik despite all the physical obstacles. But if some small doubt about the Tzaddik then arises in his mind, causing his heart to falter, this is the greatest obstacle of all. Similarly, a person encounters many obstacles when he wants to pray. However, if after overcoming them all he is ready to pray but his heart is contorted and turned away from God, this is the greatest obstacle of all.

The Baal Shem Tov told a parable about a king who left a great treasure in a certain place, surrounding it with all kinds of illusory walls. When people came to these walls, they thought they were real and that it would be very hard to break through. Some retreated immediately; others broke through one wall but could not break through the second. A few broke through more walls, but no- one could break through them all. Until the king's son came and said: "I know that all these walls are pure illusions and the truth is that there is no wall at all!" He went forward confidently until he overcame them all.

All the obstacles and temptations standing in the way of true fear of heaven are illusory walls. Be courageous and strong-hearted! All the apparent obstacles, such as financial and other material constraints or opposition from others, will disappear if you are determined and courageous in your quest for God.

Likutey Moharan II, 46

 

 

May God Help us all come to the tzaddik! 

Na Nach Nachma Nachman MeUman! 

 

NNNNM, To Jerusalem I'm calling!!!!!!!

 " There will come a time when everyone will ask “where is the petek? And where is the Baal petek?" And there will be a very long line and I will sit in my palace"
-Song of Redemption-

 

So what has been up lately? I am working very, very, very hard on trying to get the funds together to make it, to Saba for Rosh Hashana!!!! It looks like it is actually going to happen this year!!! I am soooo excited!!! It all depends if I can get the money!!! I am hoping!!! I plan to go for 10 days, not near as long as I would like but Rebbe Nachman said "A little is also good"... I hope to stay with nanachs while I am there... I do not have money for a hotel, and also I would like to experience nanach day to day life! I also hope to do some hafatza if possible.. Also the kotel, R' Shimon Bar Yochai's grave, the arizal's grave, and just have fun and BE HAPPY!!! I am always happy to hear any new ideas on what to do cause I have no idea!!! Also, if you have a place we can stay a day or so please fb me. It will be both my wife and I coming.. I do have a friend working on staying accommodations for me but I don't know if has figured anything out yet... so if you have the space and are willing please let me know... I may already have somewhere to stay, but I am unsure...

 

Anway looking forward to new beginings!!!

Nanach!!!

 

Yaakov

 

 

 

Tears

"Though He slay me I will trust in Him."

-Job-

Ok... If you do not know my story please go to my very first blog post here... http://nanachnoahidetojudaism.blogspot.com/2012/09/a-little-background-information.html

and here http://nanachnoahidetojudaism.blogspot.com/2012/09/immersion-into-holiness-holy-of-holies.html

Ok so maybe I am crazy... it certainly seems that way!! I am in such a prison... Once can not imagine the deapth of my pain!!! Fanatic fine maybe but I cannot help it! Who in the world can one love as much as my G-d! None it is not even a little possible!

Hashem has stolen my heart!!! One says to be faithful in a marriage but when the love of your life, is the G-d of the world how can it compare? Doesn't that sound wonderful? I assure you however it is not! I live in prison! In constant torture! Surely my sins I being purified! Oh for all my sins it would cost me my whole life! God my love and king have mercy on me!

The orthodox will not have me, And the conservative I cant get a conversoin with cause it wont be vailid? Why? And even if I did it truly is not possible to keep the whole torah not in a communtiy and not married to a Jew with at Jewish family...

Do I sound ungrateful? Like a bad Husband or father!? I promise I love them all! With my whole heart just as well... Or else why would I still be here in this place... Oh God the pain is great, but still I love... Have mecy on me God of my life and love of my heart and deliver me from this prison!!!

Do I sound a bit dramatic??? Maybe I am exagerating!? Let me ask you does the spirit of the words I speak, seem to be so? Oh my heart is broken... I feel as nothing is left.... Oh God save me..

"Though He slay me I will trust in Him."
-Job-

Yaakov