Until this can be resolved I feel I am at a standstill

 

I don't stand for the black man's side, I don' t stand for the white man's side. I stand for God's side.
-Bob Marley-

 

When one door is closed, don't you know, another is open.
-Bob Marley-

 

One act of obedience is better than one hundred sermons.
-Dietrich Bonhoeffer-

 

Only he who believes is obedient and only he who is obedient believes.
-Dietrich Bonhoeffer-

 

 

 

I am 100% nanach! Saba is King! I however am struggling here... I hope people can help..

 

Please help, with this. I have recently been reading about many people great people from different walks of life. People who I believe were Holy people, directly doing the work of G-d. One of these people the well known and popular Bob Marley & Dietrich Bonheoffer. One a Rastafari Christian the other a protestant Christian. Both served G-d differently but both served G-d.

One of my biggest struggles in my Journey into Judaism is , I know most usually disagree with me when I say this, but truly do know that it is true, this is that the redemption is mainly or mostly for the Jews. With the same breath one will say that loves all people. I can’t help but struggle with this idea or description of G-d. If G-d is king of the world shouldn’t he love all people equally? Now of course when I bring this up, whoever I am talking to always assures me that G-d loves all people… But answer this for me, if one is held in a higher status, a greater position then another, this is surely not a love that is equal, and surely cannot be Just. Shouldn’t the redemption be for the whole world? Now this could simply be that the original idea of the redemption possibly was to bring the Jews back to Israel and the temple to be rebuilt? So how can the redemption be for a gentile? I think the idea of the redemption has evolved over time, to mean way way more then the rebuilding of the temple etc.. To mean exactly what I am not sure maybe the redemption from this life of suffering. Does G-d love and redeem the Jew first and only secondly the gentile? A gentile can only worship G-d but not on as high of a level.. This again, seems wrong. All people ALL people were created equally.. I long to worship G-d with the deepest part of my being and yet I cannot worship at the same level as a Jew? A Jew is holier than a gentile? Holds a more special place with G-d? How can this be just? How can this be correct?

In no way am I advocating for Christianity of any form. Just coincidence I read about both these people in the last week. And although they are both christians they are very very very diffirent religions. The question for me here has nothing to do with Christianity, but something I have struggled with Judaism from the beginning. This is a HUGE mountain in my path!!! I am afraid at this point this problem must be resolved for me to continue down the path to Judaism. Please Please help.. Until this can be resolved I feel I am at a standstill, and can progress no further.

Who Am I? by Dietrich Bonhoeffer Dietrich Bonhöffer, a young theologian of great promise, was martyred by the Nazis for his participation in a plot against the life of Adolf Hitler. His writings have greatly influenced recent theological thought. This article appeared in the Journal Christianity and Crisis, March 4, 1946. Used by permission. This article was prepared for Religion Online by Ted & Winnie Brock. Who am I? They often tell me I stepped from my cell’s confinement Calmly, cheerfully, firmly, Like a squire from his country-house. Who am I? They often tell me I used to speak to my warders Freely and friendly and clearly, As though it were mine to command. Who am I? They also tell me I bore the days of misfortune Equably, smilingly, proudly, Like one accustomed to win. Am I then really all that which other men tell of? Or am I only what I myself know of myself? Restless and longing and sick, like a bird in a cage, Struggling for breath, as though hands were compressing my throat, Yearning for colors, for flowers, for the voices of birds, Thirsting for words of kindness, for neighborliness, Tossing in expectation of great events, Powerlessly trembling for friends at an infinite distance, Weary and empty at praying, at thinking, at making, Faint, and ready to say farewell to it all? Who am I? This or the other? Am I one person today and tomorrow another? Am I both at once? A hypocrite before others, And before myself a contemptibly woebegone weakling? Or is something within me still like a beaten army, Fleeing in disorder from victory already achieved? Who am I? They mock me, these lonely questions of mine. Whoever I am, Thou knowest, 0 God, I am Thine!

 

Yaakov

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