Monday, May 16, 2016

Help Me Bring my Kids to Israel




As most of you know I have been wanting to bring my family to Israel for along time now. The cost is just so high for a family of 7. I'm looking at over $7-$8000 just to fly there. I'm thinking if I could raise enough money to pay for the tickets for just the kids I could pay for my wife and I. True I could go with just my wife but the kids will be heart broken. This is a huge expense! For all of us to fly there it's like I said above $7-$8000 plus passports for all the kids $500+ plus food and shelter while there for all 7 of us, and I still have bills at home I need to maintain while we are gone... I have tried this a couple times now with little success, I have raised a couple hundred dollars in my last effort that I plan to obviously apply to the trip... but I guess I will leave it to Hashem. ... every dollar helps, if u think I have nothing, I only can give $1 think if 100 people only gave $1 that's $100 so every dollar helps. You have no obligation to help me, and I hate to ask, I simply just can't bring all my kids without help.. so if u can I would be eternally grateful.
Yaakov


כפי שרובכם יודעים, אני כבר המון זמן מבקש להביא את המשפחה שלי לארץ ישראל, בתקווה

שיכירו את הארץ והעם היהודי ויתאהבו ויאמינו כמו שאני התאהבתי ומאמין...

אבל ב"ה יש לי ואשתי 5 ילדים, ורק כרטיסי הטיסה עולים בין 7-8,000 דולר, וזה בלי ההוצאות של

דרכונים, דיור ואוכל וכו' שנהיה בארץ. ובנוסף יש לי החשבונות השוטפות פה בארה"ב שאצטרך

לשלם.

אולי הייתי יכול לבוא רק עם אשתי. אבל הילדים כ"כ רוצים ומחכים לביקור הזה בארץ! וכל כך חשוב

לי שיחוו יחד איתנו את הארץ בתפילה שנזכה יחד לגלות שמקומנו הוא באמת עם העם היהודי בארץ

הקדושה.

אז אני פונה אליכם מעומקא דלבי, שתעזרו לי לגייס את הכספים הנדרשים להפוך את החלום הזה

למציאות... באמת גם אם אין לכם הרבה, כל דולר יכול לעזור... קשה לי מאוד לבקש, רק אני כ"כ

זקוק לעזרה ואודה לכם לנצח נצחים על העזרה שאתה מושיטים לי ובני ביתי! קשה לי לבקש, ואני

מבקש רק מתוך כיסופים עצומים להגיע לארץ ישראל עם כל המשפחה שלי ולהפוך החלום שלי של

עלייה מחלום למציאות.

שהשם יהיה עמכם,

תודה רבה,

יעקב


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Thursday, January 21, 2016

UPDATE!





"I don't speak because I have the power to speak; I speak because I don't have the power to remain silent" – Rabbi A.Y. Kook




It has been almost a year since my last post! Crazy how fast time flies. Well since I last wrote, I have been to Israel, and had the most amazing time! While I was there I got shingles! It was hell! Rather though than writing about my trip which many have heard already; I realized I have not been keeping up on this blog whatsoever. I really enjoyed writing this blog and it was helpful for me as i grew into Judaism in expressing myself. 

However, as I haven't written in a while or even looked at my blog I find my views have changed on things alot. I started deleting old posts but j have decided to leave what's left. Simply because it was part of the growing process, and those were views I had or held previously to get to were I am at now. So for that reason I have decided to leave them alone. For my most current thoughts please be sure to read the most recent posts. 

Already I can say I feel much more balanced and stable than it looks like I was previously.  For now on I intend to write regularly. So please read. Share your thoughts comments or whatever you like in the comments. Love ya all. And here we are January 21st 2016 and the journey continues.

Much love

 נ נח נחמ נחמן מאומן 

Yaakov Nachman Brawn


Saturday, March 21, 2015

PLEASE HELP ME GET TO JERUSALEM!!!!



I have been into Judaism now for several years the last 4 of them has been all nanach. I desperatly want to convert to Orthodox Judaism and have been burning with desire to get to Jerusalem for years now. The tickets are very expensive and specially when I have a big family to take care of. I am married with 5 children. I work full time and  go to college. I live in the USA in Oregon Anything Helps it is my hearts desire to get to Jerusalem. I believe it is time to get on that plane but I need your help. Please help me get to Jerusalem and persue Hashem in the holy land and G-d willing convert and make alyiah...  I am almost there, I want this with every part of my soul!!!! Its all I could ever dream of!!!! I'm going alone and going to live off faith in Hashem for food and sleep... Please if you can help me in anyway even a small donation I would be forever grateful!!!!! It would make all my dreams come true!!! Anything helps even if its only $20... Thank you to all who can help and even those who cant but pray for me! Prayer is the highest! Love. NaNach!

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Thursday, April 17, 2014

Sitting Here in Limbo, Like a Bird Without a Song

 
sitting here in limbo.
 
Sitting here in limbo, like a bird without a song
Sitting here in limbo, but I know it won't be long
Well, they're putting up resistance
But I know my faith will lead me on
Sitting here in limbo waiting for the tide to flow
Sitting here in limbo, knowing that I have to go
Well, they're putting up resistance
But I know my faith will lead me on
I don't know what life will show me
But I know what I've seen
I can't see where life will lead me
But I know where I've been
Tried my hand at love and friendship
But all that is passed and gone
This little boy is moving on
Sitting here in limbo, waiting for the dice to roll
Sitting here in limbo, got some time to search my soul
Well, they're putting up resistance
But I know my faith will lead me on
I don't know what life will show me
But I know what I've seen
I can't see where life will lead me
But I know where I've been
Tried my hand at love and friendship
But all that is passed and gone
This little boy is moving on
Sitting here in limbo, waiting for the dice to roll
Sitting here in limbo, got some time to search my soul
Well, they're putting up resistance
But I know my faith will lead me on
Well, they're putting up resistance
But I know my faith will lead me on


Monday, March 3, 2014

Illusory walls




 
Only Saba!!!
 
 
  
Only Jerusalem!!!
 
 
When someone wants to serve God or travel to the true Tzaddik, he is bound to face obstacles. Each person imagines that the obstacles he faces are greater than those facing others and finds it hard to withstand them. But no-one is ever confronted with obstacles that are beyond his ability to overcome if he really wants. The truth is that there is no obstacle at all, because God is present, albeit veiled, in the very obstacle itself.
The greatest of all barriers are those in the mind - when the person is divided from God or from the Tzaddik in his own mind and heart. A person may have come to the Tzaddik despite all the physical obstacles. But if some small doubt about the Tzaddik then arises in his mind, causing his heart to falter, this is the greatest obstacle of all. Similarly, a person encounters many obstacles when he wants to pray. However, if after overcoming them all he is ready to pray but his heart is contorted and turned away from God, this is the greatest obstacle of all.
The Baal Shem Tov told a parable about a king who left a great treasure in a certain place, surrounding it with all kinds of illusory walls. When people came to these walls, they thought they were real and that it would be very hard to break through. Some retreated immediately; others broke through one wall but could not break through the second. A few broke through more walls, but no- one could break through them all. Until the king's son came and said: "I know that all these walls are pure illusions and the truth is that there is no wall at all!" He went forward confidently until he overcame them all.
All the obstacles and temptations standing in the way of true fear of heaven are illusory walls. Be courageous and strong-hearted! All the apparent obstacles, such as financial and other material constraints or opposition from others, will disappear if you are determined and courageous in your quest for God.
Likutey Moharan II, 46
 
 
May God Help us all come to the tzaddik! 
Na Nach Nachma Nachman MeUman! 

 

Saturday, April 27, 2013

NNNNM, To Jerusalem I'm calling!!!!!!!


 " There will come a time when everyone will ask “where is the petek? And where is the Baal petek?" And there will be a very long line and I will sit in my palace"
-Song of Redemption-
 
So what has been up lately? I am working very, very, very hard on trying to get the funds together to make it, to Saba for Rosh Hashana!!!! It looks like it is actually going to happen this year!!! I am soooo excited!!! It all depends if I can get the money!!! I am hoping!!! I plan to go for 10 days, not near as long as I would like but Rebbe Nachman said "A little is also good"... I hope to stay with nanachs while I am there... I do not have money for a hotel, and also I would like to experience nanach day to day life! I also hope to do some hafatza if possible.. Also the kotel, R' Shimon Bar Yochai's grave, the arizal's grave, and just have fun and BE HAPPY!!! I am always happy to hear any new ideas on what to do cause I have no idea!!! Also, if you have a place we can stay a day or so please fb me. It will be both my wife and I coming.. I do have a friend working on staying accommodations for me but I don't know if has figured anything out yet... so if you have the space and are willing please let me know... I may already have somewhere to stay, but I am unsure...
 
Anway looking forward to new beginings!!!
Nanach!!!
 
Yaakov
 
 
 

Tuesday, March 5, 2013

Tears




"Though He slay me I will trust in Him."
-Job-

Ok... If you do not know my story please go to my very first blog post here... http://nanachnoahidetojudaism.blogspot.com/2012/09/a-little-background-information.html

and here http://nanachnoahidetojudaism.blogspot.com/2012/09/immersion-into-holiness-holy-of-holies.html

Ok so maybe I am crazy... it certainly seems that way!! I am in such a prison... Once can not imagine the deapth of my pain!!! Fanatic fine maybe but I cannot help it! Who in the world can one love as much as my G-d! None it is not even a little possible!

Hashem has stolen my heart!!! One says to be faithful in a marriage but when the love of your life, is the G-d of the world how can it compare? Doesn't that sound wonderful? I assure you however it is not! I live in prison! In constant torture! Surely my sins I being purified! Oh for all my sins it would cost me my whole life! God my love and king have mercy on me!

The orthodox will not have me, And the conservative I cant get a conversoin with cause it wont be vailid? Why? And even if I did it truly is not possible to keep the whole torah not in a communtiy and not married to a Jew with at Jewish family...

Do I sound ungrateful? Like a bad Husband or father!? I promise I love them all! With my whole heart just as well... Or else why would I still be here in this place... Oh God the pain is great, but still I love... Have mecy on me God of my life and love of my heart and deliver me from this prison!!!

Do I sound a bit dramatic??? Maybe I am exagerating!? Let me ask you does the spirit of the words I speak, seem to be so? Oh my heart is broken... I feel as nothing is left.... Oh God save me..

"Though He slay me I will trust in Him."
-Job-

Yaakov

Sunday, March 3, 2013

Slay the Evil Inclination

 
I see that the main point is self-sacrifice for G-d, for the Torah. Wisdom is also good, but the main point, the basis, the main point of Judaism, of the Torah – is self-sacrifice, the strength of will!
-Saba-
 
The main thing is the will, and not to fall, that is the main thing. Not to despair and not to fall, only to renew oneself at all times. To start anew. To draw close to G-d in truth, with all one’s strength. To overcome with great determination.
-Saba-
 
I saw that the main point is dependent on the heart, according to the will –
-Saba-
Keeping your mind intently focused on your goal can also help you in studying the Torah. For example, you could focus intently on the thought that you want to complete all four sections of the Shulchan Aruch . You could calculate that if you study five pages every day you could complete all four sections in a single year. Picture in your mind exactly how you will go about this course of study. Concentrate so strongly that you are literally obsessed with the thought.
The same approach can also be applied to other studies, such as the Bible or the Talmud and its commentaries. If your desire is strong and your concentration sufficiently intense, your plans will be accomplished.
Sichot Haran #62
 
 
This to me seems can be very applicable to our Yetzer Hara.  I believe honestly that the greatest battle any of us will ever fight is the battle fought within. Saba says "I see that the main point is self-sacrifice for G-d, for the Torah. Wisdom is also good, but the main point, the basis, the main point of Judaism, of the Torah – is self-sacrifice, the strength of will!". The strength of will. It seems so hard but it can be done. we must strengthen ourselves and slay the evil Inclination!!



So many times I find myself falling, and so I get up everyday, and start over only to fall again!! But we must get up.. and keep trying and starting over everyday...

The main thing is the will, and not to fall, that is the main thing. Not to despair and not to fall, only to renew oneself at all times. To start anew. To draw close to G-d in truth, with all one’s strength. To overcome with great determination.
-Saba-
 
It is a battle we must fight, if not it is a battle without a doubt we will lose! We must care! We must strive, we must chop the head off this yetzer hara! We must keep the torah, and fight to keep it everyday, and when we fall we must get up, and if we do finally, finally with Gods help, we WILL SLAY THE EVIL INCLINATION!
 
I believe the story of David and Goliath can definitly be also a representive of the giant task we face overcoming the evil inclination. But with faith in G-d and strengthing of will we can overcome it, we can win.
 
G-d be with us all. Nn!

 

Wednesday, February 20, 2013

A Jew? A Jew Who?


 
All the words of the Torah are points of advice and ways to be a Jew, we do not know at all what is the great worth of a Jew, just the name “Jew”. As Rabbeinu said in Uman, he was doing hitbodedut* and he prayed to G-d and cried before him: “Master of the World, dear Father, merciful Father, how does one merit to be a Jew?” He was already at such a level, he was already such a genius, such a sage, such a tzaddik….. as much as he served G-d, as much as he did was nothing to him, and there was no one who could compare to him in all history, and he prayed and beseeched G-d: “How does one merit to be a Jew, how does one merit to be a Jew?…..” And he inspired us with every one of his words, with every teaching, how to be Jewish, that is our primary work, that is the essence of life, the essential light – Jewishness. All the Torah is about how to be a Jew, the Torah teaches us how to be a Jew. What is ‘Jewish’? The Torah and the mitzvot*. This is why we are living, this is the main point of life.
-Saba Yisroel-

 

Saba says;

How does one merit to be a Jew? Let's see;

  • All the Torah is about how to be a Jew!!

  • What is ‘Jewish’? The Torah and the mitzvot!

  • the ‘Flowing River, the Source of Wisdom’, who teaches us how to merit to be Jewish. It is all for us, to inform us, to inform the whole world, to each and every one in his home, how to merit to be Jewish!

  • revealed to us what is the work that the Jews have to do, what work we have to do – only the work of the Torah and the mitzvot, that is our work.

  • These are very hidden matters, but we need to delve into them, to put our hearts and minds in the books, ‘Likutey Moharan’*, ‘Likutey Tefilot’*, ‘Sippurei Ma’asiot’*, to read them and to serve G-d. What other work do we have? Only Torah and prayer!” I saw Rabbi Israel Karduner, how he was so very attached to Rabbeinu, to ‘Likutey Moharan’, he learned the lessons of ‘Likutey Moharan’ which all shed wondrous light on how to be a Jew. I saw all through the night, someone wandering from place to place, all through the room, now I know who this is. He speaks only about the Torah and the mitzvot* and all his strength, all his wisdom was how to merit to be a Jew, how to merit to fulfill the Torah and the mitzvot. This is our work in this world…..
OK, I think this is enough for now.. I as most of you, if not all of you who have been following my blog know, I am a nanach! I very much want to convet to Judaism, My wife however does not... It is very hard to keep the torah, once I convert if I am married to a non-Jew. I don't know how one can be Jewish in my situation! But I know Saba says; To merit to be a Jew, keep the torah!!!! So I intend on doing hibididut not giving up on begging to G-d for my situation to change. All the partriachs wives were barren, why? cause G-d desires the prayers of the righteous. Not to call myself righteous, that is not the point, the point is maybe G-d desires my prayers and so maybe I pray enough and keep torah the best I can and G-d will open conversion for me some how...

much peace friends!

Saba Hamelech!
NNNNM!

Yaakov

Saturday, February 16, 2013

I Am Nachman



I am Na Nach Nachma Nachman me Uman. I, I am revealing to you, what the whole world does not know – I am revealing to you: I am Na Nach Nachma Nachman me Uman. All the world does not know and does not know who I am, I will reveal to you who I am, I am Na Nach Nachma Nachman me Uman, that is all!
-Saba Yisroel-
 
Exodus (32, 32), “If you (Hashem) will atone their transgression, for if not please blot me out from your book. The words Veim ayin mecheinee Na...” backwards, reads ani Nachman; I am Nachman. Moshe Rabbenu besieged Hashem to atone and if not then atone for the sake of Rebbe Nachman who will be revealed in the future who will atone for the Jewish people.37

-nanach.org/ world created from 10 sayings-

but also here is a thought,  "I am Nachman is super Awesome!! Because, Saba said "Ani, Ani, Ani, Na Nach Nachma Nachman MeUman!"  Which is also the 10 letter song, which is the 10 serifot which is the creation of the world, symbolizing a new creation! So in other words Ani Nachman read backwards not only hints to Rebbeniu, but also to Saba who said "Ani, Ani, Ani, Na Nach Nachma Nachman MeUman!", in other words I am Nachman.  well the top paragraph is from nanach.org, this bottom part is just my thinking.. :-)

Conversion to Judaism

 
 
"Dearer to God than all of the Israelites who stood at Mount Sinai is the convert. Had the Israelites not witnessed the lightning, thunder, and quaking mountain, and had they not heard the sounds of the shofar, they would not have accepted the Torah. But the convert, who did not see or hear any of these things, surrendered to God and accepted the yoke of heaven. Can anyone be dearer to God than such a person?"
Tanhuma (ed. Buber),
Lekh Lekha 6:32


"When a proselyte comes to be converted, one receives him with an open hand so as to bring him under the wings of the Divine Presence."
(Leviticus Rabbah 2:9
 
 
Beloved are proselytes by God, for the Bible everywhere uses the same epithet of them as of Israel"
(Talmud, Gerim 4:3)

"Wherever you go, I will go. Wherever you lodge, I will lodge. Your people shall be my people, and your God my God. Where you die, I will die, and there I will be buried"
Ruth, a Moabite and the
great-grandmother of King David,
who chose to convert to Judaism.
(Ruth 1:16-17)

"You shall love the convert"
(Deuteronomy 10:19)

"You must understand the feelings of the convert."
(Exodus 23:9
 
 
I am still here! G-d do not forget me my love...... Save me from this exile!! Please
 
 
 
yaakov

Wednesday, January 30, 2013

The Dream of the Waves


"I was in the sea, and there were huge waves, like mountains."
-Saba Yisroel-
 
….. I was in the sea, and there were huge waves, like mountains. I saw that a mountain of water was coming toward me, a real mountain, and it came straight toward me with a fury. I said, “Oi vey, in a few moments it wi...ll reach me, what will be of me, I’ll die, there’s no hope. I’ll die!” That’s how it was. It came raging at me, with great speed, coming to kill me. It fell on me and I was in total despair. But then I saw that I was rising, until I reached the surface and stuck my head out and could breathe. I was still alive. Alright, the wave passed and I was still alive, but then I saw a new mountain coming, a new wave. What will be now, one cannot expect miracles to happen on a regular basis, so what will become of me now? Well, the way it came at me, it did not ask me, it came at me and fell upon me – a new mountain. Again there was a miracle, and I rose up through the water, until I poked my head from the water and remained alive. Well, good, I was saved twice. But the sea was stormy and new waves were coming. “What will become of me, what will this come to?” I sensed the danger, such waves, such mountains, and felt hopeless. I saw the danger, and each time it was a miracle, how I rose above the waves. I would rise through the water until I reached the surface and popped my head out, remaining alive. But I kept thinking, ‘Who knows what will be next?’ I saw and felt the danger of my situation. Such a dream….Suddenly, I see a great building in the sea, not far from me. A large, beautiful building, such beauty….. I said, ‘What, how could this be? Are there buildings in the sea?’ I could not see a thing aside from the waves, and suddenly I saw a building, glorious and large. I was astonished – ‘How could it be? Is it possible for a building to be in the sea?’ But there it was. I thought, ‘Perhaps this is a sign that I will be saved from the water. If there is a building, perhaps I will be able to reach it.’ I made enormous efforts, but could not reach the building. I was already right beside it, and a wave came and pulled me away, distancing me from the building. ‘What will be? I have a place of refuge but I cannot reach it, I don’t have the strength to reach the building, there’s no chance of making it. It’s right next to me, and I cannot reach it.’ Until finally I succeeded. I made a supreme effort and managed to touch the edge of the building (ma’ake – check translation). Only after I had finally grasped the (ma’ake), I felt ‘Now, thank G-d, I can climb up the stairs of the building. There is no sea, no waves, nothing, now I have hope!” So I climbed. There were many steps, and I held onto the railing and ascended with great joy. Every minute was precious beyond measure. I had merited to emerge from such danger, and was now on the stairs of a building! I climbed up the stairs until reaching the end, until reaching the entrance of the building. I reached the entrance, opened the door, and entered into a corridor. On one side there were fine-looking windows,and on the other side was a wall with doors. I came to the first door and wated to open it to see what was there. However, I did not open it, not intentionally, but I did not open it. I said to myself, ‘What? Why didn’t I open it?’ I thought, ‘This time I will open, there are many doors here.’ So I went on, and again reached a door, and again did not open it. I was angry with myself, ‘Why didn’t you open the door?’ I passed by all the doors in this manner, I went on wanting to open, and each time did not. Such a dream….. Until I reached the last door left in the building. I came to the last door, and opened it. I saw a room….. There was a table and chair, and on the chair sat a very old man with a beard – the beard was so beautiful, so white, with such grace…… Also his overall appearance, his face, had a grace not seen in this world – such sweetness. I felt very embarrassed. I saw this elderly man and I saw his face, and I felt very embarrassed and humbled. ‘What right do I have to be in this room and gaze on such a man, what right?’ I wanted to greet the man, but I did not find the courage. ‘To greet him, I feel far from being able. What merit do I have, that I could greet him? How can I find the arrogance to greet this man?’ In any case, the man extended his hand to me and greeted me, grasping my hand firmly and with great love, shaking it. “Shalom Aleichem.” He continued holding my hand with great love, with warm closeness. I did not have the confidence. But he did it himself, so what could I do? I accepted it. Then I woke up.
-Saba Yisroel-



Anyone have any thoughts, comments ideas etc... they want to share? please do.. I thought of somthing what do you think was behind all the other doors? 

Saturday, January 12, 2013

Truth

 
Truth is often grey, and deceit is full of splendour.
-Abraham J. Heschel-


 

What is Truth? And at what cost should one seek truth? At the cost of all things should truth prevail? At the cost of our loved ones? At the cost of our own lives? How important is it? Is it the highest importance? Is truth greater then faith? Is love greater then truth? Which is the highest good? And what determines Truth? Can truth be two opposites?

Its 12:48 am. I am awake, sitting by the heater on the kitchen floor, writting this on my laptop... I know questions like these cannot be easlily answered... Honestly I just started writting... As I started to write these questions above I couldn't help but think, I hope the reader will not be execting me to give answers to these questions. But then why am I writting them? Can anyone answer them? and if they did would I be satisfied with there answers? And if not does that mean I already know the answers? Or maybe it is because the answer is there is no answer.








Friday, January 11, 2013

Saba, Our light in a world of darkness.






Saba, Our light in a world of darkness.

You need to remember very very well, all the days of your life, each and every day, the great kindness of G-d that He did with you and caused awesome events to happen in His hidden ways to draw you near to the True Tzaddik. Who extracted you from the place he extracted you. And he informs you that G-d still is close to you and that He will not abandon His kindness to you forever. And even though you still are undergoing what you are undergoing, even so certainly the kindness and good that G-d  has done with you is not in vain, G-d forbid, And in the end G-d will finish His and you will merit to return to your source in perfection, in the great stength and merit of the Tzaddik, for the word of G-d lasts forever.
-Saba Hamelech-

we must know Sabas letters are for each of us individually. We must read them knowing this is to me personally from Saba.







Friday, November 30, 2012

G-d be with me

 
"I did not look at this world, at reknown and pride and importance and fame, to the contrary this had no value for me, I valued only truth..."
-Saba-
 
We will pray to G-d that He give us people of truth, faithful and true. I saw people faithful to G-d and to the Torah and they have true faith, I need to hear words of truth that will enter my heart, not words of inanity.
-Saba-
 
 
 As you know I am deeply troubled about being Jewish and such. At this point there seems to be no way out. I don't know how or why Hashem would do such a terrible thing to me but I suppose as bad as it seems it must be for my own good. The thing is I only want truth! I am interested in nothing else! Not religion either! I suppose I can have truth without being a real Jew. And so I believe at least for now this must be my ultimate direction. I am unsure of what the future holds... Only G-d knows, that I have sought after him with all my being. I have tried to be true to his voice and find him in all places. My love for him is deeper then the deepest ocean and after all I must believe he knows this. If I still have not merited to join the jewish people then it is his will, and his will is mine as well. I will continue to plea with him daily but I think maybe I must move on.. There is truth in nanach! When I dance to nanach the whole world disapears, when I read saba's words or watch his videos or read rebbe nachman everything seem brighter. I love nanach, Saba, Rebbe Nachman & I always will. But until G-d will let me in, It seems the place I am in, is exactly where I am suppose to be. I will not call myself a noahide mainly because I believe the term seem less then, wether or not intended that way. I will say I am a man, who is deeply in love with his G-d, Such a love that all other things dissapear in light of that. For me, there is nothing else. G-d be with me.
 
May I merit to be a Real Jew soon!!!
 

 

Thursday, November 22, 2012

Orthodox Jewish conversion?



This was sent to me in a email; any thoughts?

"The Orthodox Movement (Union) was founded in 1898. Their claim to being the only authentic version of Judaism simply isn't correct. Due to the Haskalah (Enlightenment) movement of the late 1800's a group of rabbis began the Orthodox Union and claimed themselves to be the only way to be a Jew. The vast majority of Jews then and now reject their claim. Conversion through the other movements is not accepted by them but it is by about 90% of other Jews worldwide -- its religious politics. Prior to 1898 there was only Karaite and Rabbinic Judaism. The Reform Movement (of the the World Union for Progressive Judaism) was formed only a few years after the Orthodox because they were offended at the Orthodox claims of holding a Jewish monopoly. The majority of Jews today worldwide are Reform, second is Conservative, a distant third is Orthodox -- even though they hold greater sway in the Jewish community on matters of Law (especially in Israel). Traditionally and historically (and according to the Shulchan Aruch) one is a Jew if three rabbis form a beit din and make that determination, one is circumcised (if male) and emerges from the mikvah regardless of affiliation with any movement. The Orthodox then can dictate who they accept into their fellowships but not who is Jewish and who is not. To deny the authority of other rabbinim is not right.

The sages of Israel have always taught that every Jew was personally present at Sinai and entered into the Covenant then and for all times. One can not therefore actually "convert" into Judaism. One can only gain acceptance by other Jews as a Jew. If one was not present at Sinai to accept Torah initially, one is not a Jew -- even if one is a high ranking Haredi Rebbe. IF you (and I) are to ever "become" truly Jewish you (and I) already are according to the Jewish scholars throughout history. You (we) are simply not recognized yet by our fellows. The Orthodox can accept or reject anyone they wish into their movement, but a Jew is a Jew is a Jew. This is an ancient and well established Jewish dogma."


Yaakov

Until this can be resolved I feel I am at a standstill

 
I don't stand for the black man's side, I don' t stand for the white man's side. I stand for God's side.
-Bob Marley-
 

When one door is closed, don't you know, another is open.
-Bob Marley-
 

One act of obedience is better than one hundred sermons.
-Dietrich Bonhoeffer-
 

Only he who believes is obedient and only he who is obedient believes.
-Dietrich Bonhoeffer-
 
 
 
I am 100% nanach! Saba is King! I however am struggling here... I hope people can help..
 
Please help, with this. I have recently been reading about many people great people from different walks of life. People who I believe were Holy people, directly doing the work of G-d. One of these people the well known and popular Bob Marley & Dietrich Bonheoffer. One a Rastafari Christian the other a protestant Christian. Both served G-d differently but both served G-d.
One of my biggest struggles in my Journey into Judaism is , I know most usually disagree with me when I say this, but truly do know that it is true, this is that the redemption is mainly or mostly for the Jews. With the same breath one will say that loves all people. I can’t help but struggle with this idea or description of G-d. If G-d is king of the world shouldn’t he love all people equally? Now of course when I bring this up, whoever I am talking to always assures me that G-d loves all people… But answer this for me, if one is held in a higher status, a greater position then another, this is surely not a love that is equal, and surely cannot be Just. Shouldn’t the redemption be for the whole world? Now this could simply be that the original idea of the redemption possibly was to bring the Jews back to Israel and the temple to be rebuilt? So how can the redemption be for a gentile? I think the idea of the redemption has evolved over time, to mean way way more then the rebuilding of the temple etc.. To mean exactly what I am not sure maybe the redemption from this life of suffering. Does G-d love and redeem the Jew first and only secondly the gentile? A gentile can only worship G-d but not on as high of a level.. This again, seems wrong. All people ALL people were created equally.. I long to worship G-d with the deepest part of my being and yet I cannot worship at the same level as a Jew? A Jew is holier than a gentile? Holds a more special place with G-d? How can this be just? How can this be correct?
In no way am I advocating for Christianity of any form. Just coincidence I read about both these people in the last week. And although they are both christians they are very very very diffirent religions. The question for me here has nothing to do with Christianity, but something I have struggled with Judaism from the beginning. This is a HUGE mountain in my path!!! I am afraid at this point this problem must be resolved for me to continue down the path to Judaism. Please Please help.. Until this can be resolved I feel I am at a standstill, and can progress no further.

 
Who Am I? by Dietrich Bonhoeffer Dietrich Bonhöffer, a young theologian of great promise, was martyred by the Nazis for his participation in a plot against the life of Adolf Hitler. His writings have greatly influenced recent theological thought. This article appeared in the Journal Christianity and Crisis, March 4, 1946. Used by permission. This article was prepared for Religion Online by Ted & Winnie Brock.

Who am I? They often tell me
I stepped from my cell’s confinement
Calmly, cheerfully, firmly,
Like a squire from his country-house.
Who am I? They often tell me
I used to speak to my warders
Freely and friendly and clearly,
As though it were mine to command.
Who am I? They also tell me
I bore the days of misfortune
Equably, smilingly, proudly,
Like one accustomed to win.
Am I then really all that which other men tell of?
Or am I only what I myself know of myself?
Restless and longing and sick, like a bird in a cage,
Struggling for breath, as though hands were
compressing my throat,
Yearning for colors, for flowers, for the voices of birds,
Thirsting for words of kindness, for neighborliness,
Tossing in expectation of great events,
Powerlessly trembling for friends at an infinite distance,
Weary and empty at praying, at thinking, at making,
Faint, and ready to say farewell to it all?
Who am I? This or the other?
Am I one person today and tomorrow another?
Am I both at once? A hypocrite before others,
And before myself a contemptibly woebegone weakling?
Or is something within me still like a beaten army,
Fleeing in disorder from victory already achieved?
Who am I? They mock me, these lonely questions of mine.
Whoever I am, Thou knowest, 0 God, I am Thine!
 
Yaakov
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Saturday, November 17, 2012

The Cry of My Heart!



 
When words and cries don't help, cry deep in your heart without letting out a sound.
Likutey Moharan II, 5

 
Who will see me, when my heart is broken before you,
Who will taste the tears streaming down my face,
Who can know my pain, and my fears,
Who can pick me up from this broken place,
This place were I am alone! I scream, Na Nach Nachma Nachman MeUman!!!!!!!!!!!
I scream Hashem!!!!!! Saba!!!!!!!!!!! Rebbe Nachman!!!!!!!!!!!! Some one hear me!!!!!!!!!!!
Someone!!!!!!!!!!!! Help!!!!!!!!!!! I dunno what to do....
My heart longs only for you Hashem, and yet you seem so far,
So many times my heart breaks, and I want to give up!
And so I do.... Only to start again tommorow.
Hashem I love you..
Do you love me?
Are you there?
Who can save me from such pain,
Who can save me from such longing, such a yearning I could cease to live,
Who can love me like you Hashem,
Who can deliver me from all my fears,
Only you Hashem... Only you...
You are more heart, my soul, my every breath... Without you I cannot even live... Without you I don't exist...
I love you... do you hear me? where are you? I need you my love.
by Yaakov

What is Good? Orthodox Conversion?.....


A person shouldn't take upon himself added stringencies, as our Rabbis taught 'The torah was not given to angels. This can make him fall from his service of Hashem. The greatest wisdom of all wisdoms is not to be wise at all, rather to be pure and honest with simplicity. (LM2 44)
‎6'Wherewith shall I come before HaShem, and bow myself before G-d on high? Shall I come before Him with burnt-offerings, with calves of a year old? 7 Will HaShem be pleased with thousands of rams, with ten thousands of rivers of oil? Shall I give my first-born for my transgression, the fruit of my body for the sin of my soul?' 8 It hath been told thee, O man, what is good, and what HaShem doth require of thee: only to do justly, and to love mercy, and to walk humbly with thy G-d.
(Mikah 6:6-8)



The original post here I removed. A very good friend answered all my questions I was struggling with. Thanks for checking it out!

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