This is the Light, that Illuminates the World!

 

"I have no connection to the world. I am simply pouring out my heart before G-d in hisbodedus."

-Saba-

 

Well my friends, It has been awhile since my last post. I have been all over the place, ups and downs have taken me hostage. The downs have blackend both eyes, and left my face swolen. My legs as if they have been weighed down by quicksand. Every step requires much effort. I cant breathe, I cant move... My heart pounds and I grow tired. Tired of the fight...tired... to tired..to go on... the ups that come so quick, quickly drop me on my head... I screaming out Saba!!! Saba!!! Help me up, please so I can reach Hashem! And out of the darkness, in the stillness of that thick black nothingness, a faint light appears, it sounds in my ear..

 

"I have no connection to the world. I am simply pouring out my heart before G-d in hisbodedus."

 

This is the light, that illuminates the world!

 

 

Where shall I go from Your spirit, and where shall I flee from Your presence?    If I ascend to the heavens, there You are, and if I make my bed in the grave, behold, You are there.  [If] I take up the wings of dawn, [if] I dwell at the end of the west,   . There too, Your hand will lead me, and Your right hand will grasp me.

Your very good and dear friend
Yaakov

-Tehillim 139:7-10-