The Struggles of G-d I have Waged

 

All the more so, when a person begins to pity himself and senses his poverty and lacking in good deeds, and argues with G-d and beseeches Him to draw him close to His service, and pours out his heart before Him with weeping and pleading, how very precious is such a prayer in the eyes of G-d, more than all the prayers in the world, even though the person has prayed and done hitbodedut for a long time, and it appears to him that he has not had effect at all, nevertheless, not a single word is lost, and all of them are noted, counted and stored in G-d’s treasuries. And even though it is impossible for a person in a physical body to know if he has had effect with his service of G-d or not, and even if all his life he only had one hairsbreadth of effect, this is also more precious than all of the life of this world. Therefore, one needs to strengthen oneself in this very much, beyond measure. And when one will be determined in it, in the aspect of “The struggles of G-d I have waged,” then certainly in the end one will merit to actualize his request and draw close to G-d in truth,

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It is very good to know this. That my prayers are heard, even if it doesn't seem so. And in the end, Hashem will actualize my request. It has been hard. I have not been as stubburn in hitbodedut as I should be. I am up again though, Ready for the next round. Hashem give me strength! But the great thing above, is that this is for all of us.., Not just me, but you too, whoever you are, whatever your going through.., we must strengthen ourselves! Hishtapchut HaNefesh says "But the primary stubbornness needs to be especially in prayer and supplication, and above all else, in the discussions of hitbodedut." So whatever it is you (reader) or I am going through.. We can do it! We must pour out our hearts to Hashem and be stubburn about doing so! Never despairing! Never! Here is some other good quotes about hitbodedut;

"Those who are accustomed to do hitbodedut, they are protected from all trouble and enemies and attackers, for they take refuge in the shadow of G-d’s wings at all times."

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"Through hitbodedut, one dwells securely."

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 "Thus, through the reciting of Tehillim and hitbodedut, everything is repaired.."

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Oh yes, real quick does anyone remember what Saba called Hishtapchut HaNefesh? "The Holy of Holies". So if its in Hishtapchut HaNefesh. I would say you can bet your life on it!  

Your loving friend Yaakov

NNNNM!