I first started writing this blog in hopes of expressing the ups and downs, the back and fourth..., the on and off of one wanting to convert to Judaism. To bring whats on the inside outside. For others who are expierencing the same thing as well as for support and to simply express myself. But now I am in a place, where I don't want to dissapoint those who have supported me or been pleased with me, or to ruin friendships which I have formed...This very Much reminds me of, my past expierences working in the xan churches. People just wanted to keep the church or "tythe givers happy". At any cost! Even with-holding the truth! I very much was disturbed by this thinking and in a sense I find myself doing the very same thing. Of course money is not invovled here, but things much more preacious. To put oneself out there, can be very hard. People are so quick to judge one another, and so one really never knows what others reactions maybe. But....
Their tears are filling up their glassesNo expression, no expressionHide my head I wanna drown my sorrowNo tomorrow, no tomorrow
And I find it kind of funny, I find it kind of sadThe dreams in which I'm dying are the best I've ever hadI find it hard to tell you, I find it hard to takeWhen people run in circles its a very, veryMad world, mad world
Children waiting for the day they feel goodHappy birthday, happy birthdayAnd I feel the way that every child shouldSit and listen, sit and listen
Went to school and I was very nervousNo one knew me, no one knew meHello teacher tell me, what's my lesson?Look right through me, look right through me
And I find it kind of funny, I find it kind of sadThe dreams in which I'm dying are the best I've ever hadI find it hard to tell you, I find it hard to takeWhen people run in circles its a very, veryMad world, mad world, enlarging your worldMad world
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