Broken....Failed.....Again, I have fallen to the evil inclination. I want to be a Jew so bad! But I continue to fall! A fast day I eat, I get up and say my prayers too late alot of times. As a matter of fact I fail all over the place. In so many area's... I am begining to wonder... if I can do it! Maybe I cant? Maybe I am not strong enough! Yom Kippur! Yom Kippur! I failed, on so many levels! Decended into the pit of the deepest darkness! I just cant seem to keep the laws, or anything! I just keep failing! And then I fall into such depression! Someone Rebbe Nachman I need a savior! Saba help me!
"Never Despair!"
"Never Give up!"
"Each day is a new day! Each moment is new!"
"NA NACH NACHMA NACHMAN MEUMAN is a segula for every problem and situation!"
"Through saying of this song NA NACH NACHMA NACHMAN MEUMAN all the judgements are sweetend and everything is transformed to good".
"This song NA NACH NACHMA NACHMAN MEUMAN fixes and heals everything!"
"NA NACH NACHMA NACHMAN MEUMAN lifts man from absolute descent to absolute ascent!
NA NACH NACHMA NACHMAN MEUMAN !!!
NA NACH NACHMA NACHMAN MEUMAN !!!
NA NACH NACHMA NACHMAN MEUMAN !!!
NA NACH NACHMA NACHMAN MEUMAN !!!
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NA NACH NACHMA NACHMAN MEUMAN !!!
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NA NACH NACHMA NACHMAN MEUMAN !!!
NA NACH NACHMA NACHMAN MEUMAN !!!
Yaakov
Our Sages teach us that "if you grab too
ReplyDeletemuch, you'll end up grabbing nothing". They said this in relation to
doing mitzvos. Halacha means "the way to walk". Just like we take one
step at a time when we walk, same thing with growing in mitzva
observance - it is meant to help you "walk upward" - that is, up a
ladder. Just like a ladder is scaled one rung at a time, first you
stand with both feet on the ground and then one foot on the ground and
one foot on the first rung, then you have to pull your other leg up
onto the first rung and stay there for a while, then go to the second
rung the same way. To complete the fast on Yom Kippur is hard for many
people, me included. You have to start with mitzvos that are easier
for you. The fact that you fasted for some of Yom Kippur counts for a
lot for you. Every individual has their own unique "ladder" that they
have to climb. Mine is different than yours. What might be on a very
high rung for me might be on a very low rung for you, and vice-versa.
But the idea is to climb the ladder slowly one rung at a time - one or
two mitzvos at a time for an extended period until you feel confident
to lift up one foot to the next rung. This is how Judaism works. This
is what Hashem expects of us and nothing more - especially from baalei
teshuva and converts - who are like very young children when it comes
to mitzva observance. Much less is expected of a 3 year old than a 13
year old who has been practicing mitzvos for 13 years. What Hashem
expects a Jew to do - we all can do it! Only you know if something is
just too hard for you at the moment - Hashem knows this too - so even
if you only do a little of what it hard for you, this counts for a lot
because you are trying to reach a rung that is not really within your
reach at this time in your life. Start with 1 or 2 mitzvos that are
easier for you, work on them until you feel good about it, and then
try another 1 or 2 mitzvos. This process can take years. This is what
it means to be a Jew.
Na Nach Nachma Nachman MeUman
ReplyDeleteBtw, Saba got the petek after breaking a fast
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